Valentine’s Day Blues
Today was a weird day,
it was Valentine’s Day
I am single. I am single, but I am not lonely.
I am completely and totally content with my single life.
Sure it would be amazing to wake up beside my prince, a tall handsome man, with piercing blue eyes, brown flowy hair, and a strong chizzled chin. One with just the right amount of muscles, that makes you feels safe and protected when he wraps his arms around you.
Sure I dream of this man,
but he will come. One day, and until that day I won’t settle for anyone less.
For now I am completely head over heels in love with myself
none the less today was an off day.
Maybe it was the instagram #lovebirds
Maybe it was the harping from my angered boss
Maybe it was the god sent web designer I had found, that wasn’t sure of our partnership because I was a “risk”
or the reasons why I should stay on the “traditional path” the “it’s been done before” from my family
or Maybe it was the lack of caffeine….
Today was just one of those days.
A day filled with self doubt.
The I can’ts
The this is impossible
The “are things ever going to change”
The self critique
even yoga wasn’t helping. I found myself in my poses cursing the life I was living, and questioning everything.
I am generally a positive person. I mean my whole platform is empowerment, positivity and mindfulness, but I too have off days.
I am Human
I am a perfectionist
and I am hard on myself.
I dream so big, that sometimes I question if my dreams are even realistic and possible. WHY can’t I just desire a regular 9-5 like so many of my friends.
But that isn’t me.
They aren’t ME
I am ME, and I am so apologetically me.
Someone has to do it, why can’t I be the one.
Even if I fall flat on my face
Even if I go broke trying
Even if i fail
I am me, and that is just who I need to be.
and no matter what happens, what is said, or what life throws at me
I am true to myself, to the core of who I am
&& I believe
I believe in Love, I Believe in Magic and more than anything I believe in ME